Yesterday I was behind a car with a license plate that, when deciphered, read, “I Owe it to me.”
I know what it is like to run after selfish ambition. To strive for money and influence, position and title. It’s the aspiration of most people to be at the top and to climb there in the fastest way possible. I also know where chasing after self fulfillment leads. One day I woke up realizing that I was so weary and had lost all sense of self and I wanted, no I craved to live a life on purpose for something greater than me.
I realized, I didn’t want this life I’ve been given to fulfill my wants, my needs, my desires and aspirations. I didn’t want to spend my life grasping for what I can get out of it. I want to live life fulfilling Gods desires for me. Pleasing him and honoring him. I want to live a life of service rather than a life of selfishness. I don’t always get it right and I always have to check my motives, but I chase hard after the things of God and my ambition is to serve others as I serve God rather than myself.
What’s the reward? You. Everyday I am reminded of how magnificent the people in my world are and I thank God for the circle of people he has placed me in.
My prayer then, and now…Oh God, search my heart and make me aware of anything that hurts you. Create in my a clean heart. Help me lift my eyes off of me and turn towards you. I cast all of my cares on you. I place all of my hurts and failures, all my hope and dreams…I place all that I am at your feet and cry out to you Jesus! Heal us, Help us, Restore us, Revive, us, lead and guide us, give us strength, help us build up our holy faith in you and only you!
Therefore humble yourselves [demote, lower yourselves in your own estimation] under the mighty hand of God, that in due time He may exalt you, Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1Peter 5:6-7